wHy Am I hAvInG s0 mAnY Tr0uBlE...

what i need is just some concern from you guys...

Friday, November 9, 2007

my mood wasn't that bad actually..

before piano..

but often..

after piano..

my mood will go down..

down and down..

after 10 years of piano..

i think im just wasting both my parents money..

as well as my time.

to attend piano lesson..

i was not cut out to be a musician..

i don't seem to have the music in me..

after 10 years of piano..

what did i learn???

i don't really know..

i hope i could play a good piece of piano..

but i could not..

its just around 3 more monthes before my piano exam..

both my theory and practical..

if im good in piano..

i could have get my piano practical exam this year september..

but i could not..

that ther reason my teacher drag it until next year..

but still

there is no improvement in my skills..

neither the playing of pieces are good

nor the skills are good..

my teacher tested me..

i could hardly get it right!!!

nor was my sightreading..

althoughit should be my best point..

but there is still some mistake..

nor was my oral good..

i could barely get marks..

going for 1 exam cost like a bomb..

its very expensive...

i had to pass it in order to not to waste the moeny spent..

but i just could not perform..

today..

when my teacher was testing my on my skill

i could not even play well

just somehow i felt like giving up..

don't want to play piano anymore..

im really very upset of myself..

but coming home..

and looking at my piano..

i know i could not forget about playing piano..

i know i could not bear to..

from a electronic piano that i once have..

becaming a grand piano..

from a beginner for piano..

not knowing what is do,re,mi..

until now

grade 5

knowing do,re,mi..

i just oculd not bear to let it go..

i remeber dreaming about my parents getting the piano away..

selling it away..

i was crying in the dream...

when i woke up..

i found that i was really crying..

i could not bear to..

but what could i do now???

suddenly i just feel like crying...

OMG!!!

how many times had i been crying sliently this year???

i don't think i could count...

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|4:10 PM|

the smile 0n my face
could hardly be real

* l0ve ish n0rt b0ut finding s0me0ne y0u cann live with__
budd findin s0meone y0u cant live with0ut.